Church...

Tomorrow is Sunday and I like all sundays I will be staying at home reading or relaxing instead of going to church. I was talking to a friend the other day and when they asked me to go to a church thing with them I said no. Not a maybe, just no. I don't know if I'm the only one that feels this way but church/religion and spirituality are 2 different things to me. Church/religion is an institution created to house the "so-called" will of the Lord but in truth, the will of said Lord is interpreted by the pastor of that church. Which is why people change churches so much because the pastor is saying things that touch their spirit so they have to keep going until they find someone who does. Some of my friends think that because I don't go to church that I don't kno the Lord. I'll admit, I probably don't pray as much as I should and I can't quote scripture but I believe that I still have the Lord eventhough I don't go to church.

I guess what it is is that the institution of Church has to me seemed no better than a high school. Some of the sisters in the church are no better than cheer leaders trying to tell folks how unsaved they are and judging people on the mistakes that they have made instead of doing exactly what the Good book says and love them and help them change. All of this came up in the first place because me and a friend of mine were talking about abortion. Before anyone asks, I am Pro-Choice. My friend was like, if you get pregnant having an abortion is wrong. The baby didn't ask to be here so you need to have it because you are responsible. I was like, yea the person/people involved are responsible for getting pregnant but what if they don't have any help and are in a bad situation? What then? My friend was like, well they need to pray and go to church. Now, another friend of mine who was pregnant was knee deep in church and hid her pregnancy until it was unhideable and when her so called church family found out they shunned her. Unfortunately she had a miscarriage and when she told her church family she was back in the fold. That shit was bogus. I bought this up to the friend I was talking to an he didn't have nothing to say. I was like, I coulda swore someone told me once, church was for sinners as well as the saved so how is anyone supposed to trust religion or whatever if at the first wrong move they are shunned?

Bullshit. This was the shit that I was talkin about. They did something similar at my former church and I just couldn't sit by and watch it anymore. My friends are like then you need to find another church. But then I'm like aren't we all praying to the same God? The same Jesus? We have all these different churches because of the different way people interpret the Bible so I decided that I will interpret it my way and live the way that I think that God speaks to my soul and says I should. I am taking a risk I guess. What if I interpret it wrong but I think it would be the same way if I went to church and followed a pastor.

Well, back to the drawing board.