Its very interesting to me that I haven't blogged in like 2 years. Its 2011 now. I am now 24 (soon to be 25) and my life has taken a few dramatic turns.
#1) I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years. After everything was said and done it was dramatic, it was a loss but its over and done with. It seemed so odd that after so much time of being in someones life the next day its like you're strangers. Its sad and tragic.
#2) I loss my job at Chick fil A. Yup, the bastards fired me on some bullshit. Not to sound like a conspiracy theorist, they didn't like that I was speaking up about the disparities at the job (at the urgings of my friends and fellow coworkers) and some managers felt like I was gunning for their job. It was blatant racism, sexism whatever. I tried to get some legal action involved but they told me that they couldnt help because Maryland is an at will state. FYI, if you live in MD your bosses can fire you essentially for NO DAMN REASON. Watch your ass.
#3) I have been in and out of three jobs, all of which pay worse than CFA and I haven't rebounded financially. I'm going through my savings left and right. I never thought my bank account would be so low.
#4) I have found a potential new love but like all potentials there is a potential for success and failure. I'm not sure where this will end yet but I'm happy.
#5) (Finally) I am in my last year of graduate school but a few things that are out of my control may set me back.
All in all, I am happy to be in good health, still able to dream and work but I have hit the most tragic rut ever. Its safe to say that year 24 in the book of my life sucks and I can only hope that it will get better with time.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Updates...
Hey Everybody,
I kno that I have been M.I.A. lately but thats only because I was on my grind getting money and graduating from undergrad at MSU, which i did by the way. I am now the proud owner of a Bachelors degree in Psychology. Yea me!!! But as much as I would like to celebrate that it hasn't been as good as i hoped it would be. Why? Well i'll tell you:
GRIPE #1
Eventhough I have my degree that doesnt seem to be good enough for the jobs that I am interested in. They all want experience and I'm sitting here thinking to myself I was in school so that's why i don't have the experience. Then I got to thinking, maybe I should have gotten an internship but most of the internships in psych are for research so it still wouldn't have helped much. smh. I just couldn't win on that one. so its been almost 6 months since graduation and I did finally find a job as a Substitute at Key Point an while its not exactly what I was looking for it will help with my resume.
GRIPE #2
Eventhough I have the substitute job it doesn't pay the same as my fast food job and since I am not full or part time staff I dont even get any of the fringe benefits to balance out the lack of money. Cant win on that one either.
GRIPE #3
So i realized the not balancing part so i decided to work both jobs which is cool but at the substitute job they want me to work nights which i dont have a problem with but I hate working days at my fast food job. ugh!!
But, what can you do. On a side note, I am also in graduate school now at Argosy University so I am working on my second degree. FYI grad school is so much better than undergrad.
O n one last thing, i still havent finished my book. lol.
Toodles!
I kno that I have been M.I.A. lately but thats only because I was on my grind getting money and graduating from undergrad at MSU, which i did by the way. I am now the proud owner of a Bachelors degree in Psychology. Yea me!!! But as much as I would like to celebrate that it hasn't been as good as i hoped it would be. Why? Well i'll tell you:
GRIPE #1
Eventhough I have my degree that doesnt seem to be good enough for the jobs that I am interested in. They all want experience and I'm sitting here thinking to myself I was in school so that's why i don't have the experience. Then I got to thinking, maybe I should have gotten an internship but most of the internships in psych are for research so it still wouldn't have helped much. smh. I just couldn't win on that one. so its been almost 6 months since graduation and I did finally find a job as a Substitute at Key Point an while its not exactly what I was looking for it will help with my resume.
GRIPE #2
Eventhough I have the substitute job it doesn't pay the same as my fast food job and since I am not full or part time staff I dont even get any of the fringe benefits to balance out the lack of money. Cant win on that one either.
GRIPE #3
So i realized the not balancing part so i decided to work both jobs which is cool but at the substitute job they want me to work nights which i dont have a problem with but I hate working days at my fast food job. ugh!!
But, what can you do. On a side note, I am also in graduate school now at Argosy University so I am working on my second degree. FYI grad school is so much better than undergrad.
O n one last thing, i still havent finished my book. lol.
Toodles!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Time....
So today was the Michael Jackson Memorial and I was just realizing how much time has passed by and how the roads people have taken lead to their different outcomes. MJ was one of the most iconic people in the world to millions of fans but little did we know he was more miserable than we ever could have imagined. That thought alone as made me want to be more aware of the choices I make and how it effects not only me but the people around me. But I guess even more than that, it is seriously crazy how many people we lost this year. Live life to the fullest.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
The Past Few Months...
Hi everybody!,
I know that is has been a while since I made an update so I'm going to fill you guys in on the past few months that I have been away. Well first of all, I am a graduating senior at Morgan so that means that I have been busy with my senior project. That entails me coming up with my own research hypothesis, getting the idea approved, as well as collecting, interpreting, and presenting the data that I do collect. That has not been an easy task but now that I have less than a month to do it I have to step my A game up.
Two, I haven't really had much of a social life outside of playing video games and writing my book. I'm up to 23 pages now. LOL. That doesn't sound like a lot but it is when you are constantly going over it and revising what you did write. I think my last post stated that I wasn't sure what I was going to go with the story and I finally figured it out but you guys have to wait for it to actually show up. Well that's about it so until next time.
I know that is has been a while since I made an update so I'm going to fill you guys in on the past few months that I have been away. Well first of all, I am a graduating senior at Morgan so that means that I have been busy with my senior project. That entails me coming up with my own research hypothesis, getting the idea approved, as well as collecting, interpreting, and presenting the data that I do collect. That has not been an easy task but now that I have less than a month to do it I have to step my A game up.
Two, I haven't really had much of a social life outside of playing video games and writing my book. I'm up to 23 pages now. LOL. That doesn't sound like a lot but it is when you are constantly going over it and revising what you did write. I think my last post stated that I wasn't sure what I was going to go with the story and I finally figured it out but you guys have to wait for it to actually show up. Well that's about it so until next time.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
My First Real Novel...
Hey everybody,
Today I decided to tell you guys about the story that I'm writing. The story is untitled for right now but it is about an African American Clarvoyaint/Empath/Psychic named Dvina Taylor. I noticed in the sci-fi genre there isn't a lot of African American protagonists. It could be because most of us aren't into it but i doubt that seriously. I also think that if there were more African American's writing these stories we could introduce more of my culture to think outside of the box and not be considered "weird" but anyway. I havent decided if I want to make her half angel and demon or half demon and human. Some people act a lil funny when you try to add religion into the mix but you can't have "good" without "bad" rite? But either way, demons and religious elements are involved because i'm basing the bad guys off of the seven deadly sins and the seven (or nine) circles of hell. I plan on doing research with Dante's Inferno as a guide. Since this is book 1 (i think i want to make it a series of each sin being a separate entity) I need to do more research on psychic abilities because of course she has to evolve as a character. Anyway, Im babbling but this is the beginning of the process. Toodles
Today I decided to tell you guys about the story that I'm writing. The story is untitled for right now but it is about an African American Clarvoyaint/Empath/Psychic named Dvina Taylor. I noticed in the sci-fi genre there isn't a lot of African American protagonists. It could be because most of us aren't into it but i doubt that seriously. I also think that if there were more African American's writing these stories we could introduce more of my culture to think outside of the box and not be considered "weird" but anyway. I havent decided if I want to make her half angel and demon or half demon and human. Some people act a lil funny when you try to add religion into the mix but you can't have "good" without "bad" rite? But either way, demons and religious elements are involved because i'm basing the bad guys off of the seven deadly sins and the seven (or nine) circles of hell. I plan on doing research with Dante's Inferno as a guide. Since this is book 1 (i think i want to make it a series of each sin being a separate entity) I need to do more research on psychic abilities because of course she has to evolve as a character. Anyway, Im babbling but this is the beginning of the process. Toodles
Friday, January 9, 2009
New Year...
Hey everyone. I kno that it has been a minute since I posted so Im gonna take the time out to say happy new years and I hope that everyone's was as blessed as mine. And now its time for my new years resolutions so...
1. Thou will start to put me first and everyone else second
That's not say that I won't care about people and their feelings but that is to say that I will stop allowing their feelings and issues dictate my life. I need to put distance between their problems so I can deal with my own.
2. Thou will heal old wounds
That can be taken a number of ways but I guess I'm saying that I will try my best to fix the issues with my sisters. We are getting too old to be petty and although I feel like I have done all that I can in a way I will try again and see if their is really nothing that I can do.
3. Thou will try to reconnect with old friends
If you read some of my previous posts you will notice that I talk about being lonely. I have decided that I am just as responsible for forging and keeping friendships just as friends in question are. I will take this year to reconnect before I can no longer fix the problems.
4. Thou shall use all of my exercise equipment
I have spent about close to 500 dollars on shit so I will be using it this year. If I lose weight I'll be sure to let you know. lol.
5. Thou will finally finish a book
It may take a while but before the year is over I plan to be finished if not almost finished my first serious sci-fi novel. I'll keep u posted.
This is all I can think of for right now so I'll be sure to let you know or u can see for yourself as I post.
1. Thou will start to put me first and everyone else second
That's not say that I won't care about people and their feelings but that is to say that I will stop allowing their feelings and issues dictate my life. I need to put distance between their problems so I can deal with my own.
2. Thou will heal old wounds
That can be taken a number of ways but I guess I'm saying that I will try my best to fix the issues with my sisters. We are getting too old to be petty and although I feel like I have done all that I can in a way I will try again and see if their is really nothing that I can do.
3. Thou will try to reconnect with old friends
If you read some of my previous posts you will notice that I talk about being lonely. I have decided that I am just as responsible for forging and keeping friendships just as friends in question are. I will take this year to reconnect before I can no longer fix the problems.
4. Thou shall use all of my exercise equipment
I have spent about close to 500 dollars on shit so I will be using it this year. If I lose weight I'll be sure to let you know. lol.
5. Thou will finally finish a book
It may take a while but before the year is over I plan to be finished if not almost finished my first serious sci-fi novel. I'll keep u posted.
This is all I can think of for right now so I'll be sure to let you know or u can see for yourself as I post.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Church...
Tomorrow is Sunday and I like all sundays I will be staying at home reading or relaxing instead of going to church. I was talking to a friend the other day and when they asked me to go to a church thing with them I said no. Not a maybe, just no. I don't know if I'm the only one that feels this way but church/religion and spirituality are 2 different things to me. Church/religion is an institution created to house the "so-called" will of the Lord but in truth, the will of said Lord is interpreted by the pastor of that church. Which is why people change churches so much because the pastor is saying things that touch their spirit so they have to keep going until they find someone who does. Some of my friends think that because I don't go to church that I don't kno the Lord. I'll admit, I probably don't pray as much as I should and I can't quote scripture but I believe that I still have the Lord eventhough I don't go to church.
I guess what it is is that the institution of Church has to me seemed no better than a high school. Some of the sisters in the church are no better than cheer leaders trying to tell folks how unsaved they are and judging people on the mistakes that they have made instead of doing exactly what the Good book says and love them and help them change. All of this came up in the first place because me and a friend of mine were talking about abortion. Before anyone asks, I am Pro-Choice. My friend was like, if you get pregnant having an abortion is wrong. The baby didn't ask to be here so you need to have it because you are responsible. I was like, yea the person/people involved are responsible for getting pregnant but what if they don't have any help and are in a bad situation? What then? My friend was like, well they need to pray and go to church. Now, another friend of mine who was pregnant was knee deep in church and hid her pregnancy until it was unhideable and when her so called church family found out they shunned her. Unfortunately she had a miscarriage and when she told her church family she was back in the fold. That shit was bogus. I bought this up to the friend I was talking to an he didn't have nothing to say. I was like, I coulda swore someone told me once, church was for sinners as well as the saved so how is anyone supposed to trust religion or whatever if at the first wrong move they are shunned?
Bullshit. This was the shit that I was talkin about. They did something similar at my former church and I just couldn't sit by and watch it anymore. My friends are like then you need to find another church. But then I'm like aren't we all praying to the same God? The same Jesus? We have all these different churches because of the different way people interpret the Bible so I decided that I will interpret it my way and live the way that I think that God speaks to my soul and says I should. I am taking a risk I guess. What if I interpret it wrong but I think it would be the same way if I went to church and followed a pastor.
Well, back to the drawing board.
I guess what it is is that the institution of Church has to me seemed no better than a high school. Some of the sisters in the church are no better than cheer leaders trying to tell folks how unsaved they are and judging people on the mistakes that they have made instead of doing exactly what the Good book says and love them and help them change. All of this came up in the first place because me and a friend of mine were talking about abortion. Before anyone asks, I am Pro-Choice. My friend was like, if you get pregnant having an abortion is wrong. The baby didn't ask to be here so you need to have it because you are responsible. I was like, yea the person/people involved are responsible for getting pregnant but what if they don't have any help and are in a bad situation? What then? My friend was like, well they need to pray and go to church. Now, another friend of mine who was pregnant was knee deep in church and hid her pregnancy until it was unhideable and when her so called church family found out they shunned her. Unfortunately she had a miscarriage and when she told her church family she was back in the fold. That shit was bogus. I bought this up to the friend I was talking to an he didn't have nothing to say. I was like, I coulda swore someone told me once, church was for sinners as well as the saved so how is anyone supposed to trust religion or whatever if at the first wrong move they are shunned?
Bullshit. This was the shit that I was talkin about. They did something similar at my former church and I just couldn't sit by and watch it anymore. My friends are like then you need to find another church. But then I'm like aren't we all praying to the same God? The same Jesus? We have all these different churches because of the different way people interpret the Bible so I decided that I will interpret it my way and live the way that I think that God speaks to my soul and says I should. I am taking a risk I guess. What if I interpret it wrong but I think it would be the same way if I went to church and followed a pastor.
Well, back to the drawing board.
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